Tenth and Thanu

Some time back in my schooling days..

తెలిసి తెలియని వయసు నాది,
తన కోసం ఎదురు చూసే తరగతి నాది.

తప్పు నాది కాదు, తప్పు నా తనువుది.
తప్పు తనది కాదు, తప్పు నా తపనది

తెగించ లేని వయసు, తపించి పోయింది మనసు
తన ఙ్ఞాపకం తో నేను, తన ఙ్ఞాపకార్ధం కొసం వేతుకుతున్నాను.

నా లోకం లొ తాను స్వేచ్చగా విహరించింది,
తన లోకం లొ నా పాత్రకే ప్రవేశం లేని శిక్ష విదించింది.

ప్రార్ధన చేసాను , ప్రాదేయపడ్డాను.
పోరాడాను, ప్రాకులాడాను

తన జాడ తెలియని నేను , తన కోసం వెతికాను.
వెతుకుతూ వెర్రి వాడినాయి ఇలా రాస్తూనే వున్నాను.

నా రాత తనతో కలిపి రాయని దిక్కుమాలిన దేవుడు ని దేహి దేహి అని ప్రాదేయ పడ్డాను
తీరక లేదు పొమ్మన్నాడు, తనతో తనని తీసుకుని పోయాడు

-రామ చంద్ర వర్మ



The below is not the translation of the above

She ignored me then, she ignored me now
Coz she dont know me then, and she cant know me now.

Its not about her, but the precious feeling of luv I possessed
Its not about her, but the honest tears that ran down my cheeks then.

She showed me different flavors of life, and also made me taste my tears.
She never considered me then, she cannot consider me now.

Thats how itz designed by him, and is the reason I don’t trust him now.
U call him god, I call him greed.

He played with me, I offered him prayers
He still played with me, I gave him tears
He continued playing, I displayed my honesty.
He never stopped playing, and then I showed him my middle finger 🖕.

-Ram Chandra Varma

#MeToo

I started writing this with anger, inadequate anger. Today morning I woke up to see a fb feed from a cousin as a part of her writing “ A bike drove past us. Before I realized what had happened the guys on the bike got away. One of them grabbed my breast”. I was astonished by her guts putting this in black and white and in a social platform. That feed I read was constantly effecting my meetings and my work. Now, I have to keep the work aside and start typing here in this blog.

Ages back, The place we today live is all animals of different species types, small, big, clever, cruel, intelligent etc and humans never existed then. It took ages and centuries for animals to evolve to humans and remember all the ones you see around today may not be Human but a WILD ANIMAL in human skin out there, so its always YOU versus the UNKNOWN wild animal in dark that will ripple you one day. Physically and socially weak you girls are its soft targets. These attacks differs on which animal he inherits. It has nothing to do with the dress you were, or the perfume you spray. 

If anyone say, he is provoked by your dress, physical appearance, curves, breasts or bums , then the only solution is to ban the fucking clothes and become damn fat. So all the world can roam naked with all sizes and different variety bums, tummys, dicks and tits. And at some point we all walk naked and Once everything becomes a norm he has nothing to explore or exploit. Then its all naked men and women he sees every day and may not have any wicked fantasies or wild thoughts. 

Okay enough about this animal, but what about us ? when such things happening around. I know, We have 2 choices . one is to hide your face and act as if nothing happened, the other is to record the scene and share it on the social platform and then act, shout, resist, hashtags. The end result is, we are increasing the count of such videos and at some point we quickly forget the incident because its not US or OUR family, few ppl around enjoys these videos you share, they will enjoy the visual treats of exploiting by satisfying the animal in them.

The biggest problem is none speaks, in other words we as a society never gave that freedom to express these issues. We a fucking sheep, will wait for someone to come out of the flock and then we follow the  hashtags, candles. I am much specific about the word “Society” it is not HE or HER or THEM , it is all us and we are that assholes. Did you ever wonder why you always hear such things happen to your friends daughter or your neighbor sister or your colleague wife? But never to your family? .Its because you are either a bastard or a bitch who never cultivated the right atmosphere allowing them to share such things in the family, I bet atleast 99%  girls face this exploitation at some point, this includes my wife, sister, mother and yours too. 

When such things happens, the convenient way is to blame the victim.. ”You should have avoided that route” “you should have took your bro” “You should have not worn that deep neck”  and guys don’t be stupid in saying these are the root causes. If these are the root causes can you guarantee me that no rapes and molestation happen if the women are fully and loosely covered? Do you think these thinks stops ?.

Isnt the ANIMAL that is the rootcause? Why don’t our discussion be the animal on how to identify it? How to tame it? How to hunt it? .Now don’t fire stupid questions like “How do we know they attack” “who are they”…etc.We today say, we are super humans studying  about mars, putting rockets in space, hyperloops..but don’t you think we just need a fraction of that interest or technology to start addressing these heavily emotional issues.

I know we are Humans and offcourse the selfish ones. We are okay as long as the animal is on the roads and looking for others, until it knocks our door. Remember dude, once it knocks your door all you have to do is to offer your Wife, Sister or your Mother and later forget that moment. Don't feel safe or relaxed saying I have no women home, it may grab your balls.

Atleast react when that happens infront of you, try to approach the victim, if possible reciprocate atmost you get a slap, kick or blow which can be erased easily when compared to the wound they leave on a victim.

Thought Process

I am sitting in a chair where my eyes were busy looking at a “Connect-IT” a software application which is showing me a error “ Error while processing event with Id '4cc86cce04bb6802': 'Cannot execute application: axces.database\r\nUnrecoverable error in application ”, and my short Brain is busy analyzing and trying to get the root cause as it needs to be fixed. SUDDENLY I dropped myself back into the chair closed my eyes ……….I am visualizing a million of instructions running in my so called HEAD as shown in movies :-). Suddenly not sure what happened started thinking of many other things… which I am documenting below.

• Why the hell am I acting here?

• What are my Interests?

• What am I doing?

• Why am I doing?

Are the questions I had for myself. To be BOLD my Interests are different and definitely not SOFTWARE.I am doing all these because I only know these and nothing else. Obviously I am doing all these things from Morning 9:00 AM – 6:00 PM for somebodyelse, for DOLLARS instead or RUPEES. Next set of questions in my mind.

• Why do I Need DOLLORS?

• Am I happy with DOLLORS?

 

For Friends, Relatives and Parents Dollors makes the difference and surely not for me. I cannot drive a car which is a passion of mine, I cannot eat PANI PURI when I like too, I cannot take a FAMILY out for dinner, I cannot feel the reactions of friends when they need me or when I am in NEED, BUT I can Gift a car to my DAD, I can order Pani puri online to somebody who like it back in there, and can buy gifts online and can never see the first expressions of my friends when they receive them. What all I can do is go to Office with a ironed SHIRT and a neat Trouser with a costly tie and polished shoes and act professional, will get some time on Weekends but most of the time I use it for updating my skill set or exploring on the existing issues or a watch a damm movie online. And doing all for DOLLORS which I would get MONTHLY ONCE and try to save it for OTHERS during the rest of the MONTH.

 

DAD did you do a mistake EDUCATING me and killing my freedom? and u should have encouraged me in other things. This is not a question to my dad alone but to all the parents…”are you educating your children only for Earning” I am not saying that my parents were doing it, I am telling that I don’t have any other options apart from doing it.

 

Suddenly another sharp turn in the Process. I started thinking about friends and society. A bitter one to digest… I have seen some quotes like “friendship is the rain bow between 2 hearts..” something like this..and I laugh heavily at them. I classified people into 2 different sections, 1) The section of people who interests me 2)The section of people who doesn’t interest me. I completely ignore the 2 group coz I am not interested. I give at most Importance to the group one irrespective of their thoughts on me. I laughed at me when my friends say “he is a best friend , he did not do this though I give him a lot of importance … he ditched me …” chill pill guyz the so called friend is your selection and your interest. To me “ No one will help you at the cost of his interests or his life, there is no point for him to help you, Everything is done with an expectation, its upto you how you receive it” . I will never forget the help I received from someone with whatever intention it is done. To me what matters is I am benefited from them at some point of my life cycle and I will make sure that I will add some value to their lives at some point.

when you say "you are one of my good friends"  or" ur my good friend". Think  what are you trying to do here..............

Yeah DAMMMM still I am yet to complete my Work and stuff Guyz ......:-(

Rest of the things after the break..

-Ram

Life....

My answer to the question “Howz life?” is just “Fine”.. Now I changed the answer to “AWESOME”. “Life” is always very small word in my own world, as I always kept myself pretty busy all the time with Family, Cousins, Friends, Issues, confusions, Solutions, Job, Competition and many other things. Since the time I know about me, I am occupied with something or the other which never allowed me to think about what I need and what my interests are..unknowingly Job and money are always my foreground jobs and all my other interests, hobbies are almost dead in the background.

I realized all this only when I got time to be on a vacation recently. It drove me to another world and I named it “HAPPINESS” where I don’t have any time to think about anything else except the showers of rain, noise of the river running side by, and eyes filled with greenery. while returning back after a 5 day vacation..I could hear my heart saying “RAM UR ELIGIBLE TO DIE NOW” .

That trip thought me few lessons, I lost interest in Money, for me it’s a medium of exchange for your needs and luxuries. Money is Important only If you can buy happiness….and it has no meaning if you face difficulties and tensions earning it @ cost of your precious health. I am not saying I don’t need Money, but I am saying its my back ground job for my foreground jobs. I conveyed my parents that I will not be saving it @ cost of my interests and happiness. I pity all those who earn and could not have some time for their OWN.

 These days earning is a difficult job, spending it for our needs is again a big job ;-). But at the end if we are satisfied with on what we spend its just AWESOME, Unfortunately we don’t…(I am also included here ;-)).This month I am only left with some 500 Dollars for the next 24 days.

 Living for your needs alone do not distinguish you from the rest of the world. A cute smile, a huge blush, great happiness in their eyes who desperately need it for their needs ….. are few things I like to  remember all the time.

Where are we Heading?

I remember my childhood days where there is a too much of value for a 25 Paise to buy a candy, and I dont have that then. Later there used to be a  value for a 1 Rupee where I can buy a toffee and I dont have that then. Later a value for 5 rupees for a Cadburys and I dont have have the same. Later I dont have a Hundred ruppes to buy a cricket bat, later I dont have 500 rupees to buy a branded Shirt, Later 1000 rs to buy a shoes.............Later donot have 30k to buy a mobile. NOW I DONT HAVE 45 LAKHS to buy a HOUSE. 

I am giving my example, and you can even relate this to yourself. The journey started from 25 paise and  travelled some good number of days and still the destination is not reached. For your information friends the destination will not be reached and the journey will not be halted coz WE DONOT HAVE A "TARGET". Yes, We donot have a target, Though we have a target you cannot stop this journey coz...its the simple reason ...as the reason why Anil or Mukesh Ambani cant stop there Business once they reached some 30k crores and start spending what they earned.

For us things changed, value of 25 paise is gone long ago and value of 1000 gone years back. But when Government anounces a gas for white card holders we will be in a quee there, We will be getting a rice in a ration shop without going to ration shop though we dont have eligibility to buy  the same. A fee reuibersement program  announced for certain people.. our children or we will be using the same program. A free house scheme annouced for poor people, we will get a house there. coz we earned more and we have influence..A call to MRO or a MINISTER will do every thing.

Every benefit scheme announced by the government to the poor..is being perfectly utlized by US who are POOR....not Poor interms of finicials...But poor interms of knowledge though we are well educated, poor interms of understanding poor though we know their pain. Poor is getting only a 9 paise of every rupee spent by government and in that 9 paise if we claim our share what will the poor really get. The fact is still they are 25 %  people in INDIA who still value 25 paise. Who is eating once a day, and studies is beyond their thoughts.

We blame politicians are corrupted, yes they are and every one knows that. But the question is, if they are really corrupted why are they still sitting and enjoying in that position. The answer is we are electing them..next question is why are we electing them?...ans is we vote for a party that we think that wins or we vote for a party which have done some favour to us by giving few things(things which should actually belong to poor) or some selfish reason. Every corruption by a Politician will have a reson and lets NOT BE THE REASON BY CHOOSING HIM. We should send a message that its hard to manipulate the educated and we donot fall for a bottle of wine or a television set like poor who is not educated.

I was into tears when I saw a little boy starring at me. he has some 8 or 10 years of age...looking continously and with a innocent face which draw my attention towards him. I bought him a cadburys chocolate he refused it and asked for a candy. And when asked what he wanted...he said he wanted my dress....I am bit surprised...and when asked why?  he thinks he would get some food( not money) if he wears that dress and goes out at 9 PM and comes back at 6 PM....

I gave him 2k...I donot know what he did...hope some body like us..... didnot drag the same away from him.

Lets behave educated and LETS NOT BE POOR FOR EVERY THING.

The pic is what I can visulize that we do to poor ........

Lets think 

-Ram

I Luv her...and finally she left..:-)

Hi friends ..hope this should be an interesting topic atleast for my friends...and for people who know me...

This month April is not that good for me I guess...every thing is a bad news..and bad news is about my topic "She finally left".....

I know her since an year.....I had every hope she will be with me till her end...she is cute...she is SMALL :) .. she is hard..though I tell her or though I dont ...she knows about my friends..and more than friends she know my feelings..my approach..my decency ..my cruelty...

Most of my friends never knew or I never Said them I like her and I LUV HER...but most of you guys  have seen her....if you have a interaction with her..you cannot take your looks out of her..coz she impress you to that extent..she is beyond your expectation.

But recently she is changed..she made up her mind to move away from me....and finally she did ...and this time Permanently.she never understood What I would be with out her?....she left me with nothing..she took away all my friends and all my contacts..my past memories...my happiness

I respected her word..and started adjusting life with out her..."Every thing that LEAVE us, will be replaced by a better option"... I believe in this..though hard. I started searching for a new one for some time...but she never had a replacement..but finally I succeeded...I found a replacement..she is not as intelligent as the other..but she has her own unique qualities which seriously attracted me .. but at the same time she is more beautiful in terms of looks...:) she is a good ADJUSTMENT

hellluuuuu hold on guys..here I am talking about my Iphone and my recent mobile Xperia X10...I lost my iphone and brought the other.But finally I found my DARLING(Iphone :-)), she came back to me and she will be happy with me..coz I know I will never loose her again.. dont ask me what would I do with the other...This time my SIS is LUCKY :-)

--Ram

Every one will be good if you take Postive...

Today I am away from home and abroad and I am living the perfect life, dont get carried away with the word "PERFECT LIFE" I used here, I will portray you what I meant. The idea of this post is to talk about different people I encountered and intern what they thought me. in fact what i learnt by observing them.

From the past 2+ years I unknowingly started analyzing people whom I know and even whom I am not aware. Initially it gave me an impression that I am good in analyzing but now if I think and ask myself, if any time analyzed myself? the answer I have is NO. I have met few some people here in Singapore who made me think twice before I deceide.

As usual I started  forecasting about my technical skills and started the journey of proving that I am great. This time I had a chance to meet a senior by name Vamshi. one day during the conversation with him during tea time.. he was telling few things in generic..I asked him a question and he is talking to another colleague of mine..He stopped that conversation and very casually said that he would answer that question after his conversation with the other. From that moment I decided I would never stop or break any others conversations in the middle. we had a great chat a couple of times and few points that are worthy that one should look upon in their professional life's

1) Never judge people, If a colleague is not doing well its not his fault. Its the failure of the management who never gave him enough space for him to work (or) fault of the management who have hired that person without proper interview. But Still u can use that person to work on some thing if u train him and give him the comfort

2) IF you feel u have high levels of IQ, What is the point of you conveying others that you have that? others will know that if you really have

3) Stop talking much, Start listening and I promise u will find the difference,Be polite and never underestimate anyone, everybody is good at some thing which we cannot be.

4) Never keep yourself in the problem solver shoes. Some times  u might fail and that time people never remember your past positive actions for them


5) Be Active pump energy into others, Be lively and ur thoughts would be the same


6) Care for the ones who cares you. Life is not limited to a single friend or a person. You will not be able to satisfy every one whom u think off..


7) Never Ask a person, what they think about you. If you do ..You are letting your self down. You are the best one to analyze yourself. No ones knows your strengths and weakness better than you.


8) While taking a advice from others..Just check if its really an advice..You will find people who will mislead you for their own benefits


9) life is a one time experience, why do you let others play or influence ur thoughts.. ur friends.. ur enemies every one is the result of your various ways dealing ur life. 


Be Happy and make others happy. Some might think you are a fool, Some might find you odd ..at the end you know what you are..one day others will know. Live like its you for others and not like for others it's you.

-Ram